I’ve spent a good part of the last 30 years either having a good time or regretting the good time or both. My struggle is that by day 5 after too much i forget the misery of days 2 and 3. it’s like groundhog day. I’m hoping that writing down my reasons for not drinking will help keep them in front of my mind. I process best out loud–i have to hear the stream of consciousness come out of my mouth to understand what i’m feeling and why. maybe i can recreate that in writing.